~~ME~~

I , myself clearly know that i am not a beautiful girl.......therefore, sometimes i try try every single thing that can make me look better, at least not going to the ugly side, coz sumtimes i do care abt my appearance.

I, clearly know that i am not clever enough, but I tried...to make myself at least not to become a stupid girl., ...

I, daydreaming all the time.....the dreams in my mind, I will try to achieve. TRY MY BEST TO MAKE MY DREAMS COME TRUE!

I, sometimes is a lazy girl......lying on the bed, close my eyes, sleep...refuse to wake up.

I, a girl who not really like a girl...trying to boy, not really a boy ...just like be stronger and smarter.Whenever i face a problem, I will try to solve it by myself, actually i dont really like the feeling of calling for help. COZ it make me feel I am like a useless girl and not independent at all. I CAN HANDLE MY problems? HOHOHO who said so? i can do it vry well sometimes!

My friends will sometimes teasing me...when talk about love affairs....sometimes myself will wonder why i refuse to fall in love with somebody? Well then i found out the reason, >> i scared to being hurt, dont want to endure sadness...when me n my BF break up..., I ..totally a coward! TO be honest, there is another reason hiding behind, ....that's i cant stand there is another ppl beside me which i have to take care him all the time..and when u are with me all the time, i believe u two will gradually find out the bad charactetristic of ur lover, if u cant tolerate it....u two wil end up by breaking up! SO, what for? right?
to conclude, I am a terrible person, self-centred,selfish,like to daydreaming,not beautiful and no smart too.
THAT"S ME~~ A truly HIPPO........

SPM is coming!!!

AaaaAAAAA......!!!!! Well, SPM isn't so important in one's life....but it plays a quite important part in the way u choose your future...But, i actually enter college nxt year ON JAN, so,....i gonna use my forecast result to enrol...and i decided to take sholarship....so....i think forecast result is more important than SPM, rite? ya ya..^^
So, the test is around the corner, not SPM...but is the test i wan to use it to enter college...so...i m really scared rite now!!!! HELP!!!!! i still no idea where to get start!!!! not yet revision...a person like me no tuition for most of my subjects...is quite hard for me to study by my own...HENCE, i ...have no choice but to force myself! GOD, suffering........

Graduation Nite in Pearl View Hotel!!

HAlo friends, i dont know is there any friends to say hai...but still ...wanna say it^^ HELLO!
9 Aug 2008...that nite after the opening ceremony of olymipic...We..I ans my classmate had a graduation nite in Pearl View Hotel!!!!! That night, all of us look so...different ...all make up, change their hair style......wearing beautuiful and charming dress!! Some bring their partner( some actually is their lovers...^^) ALL HANDSOME and BEAUTIFUL! I am wearing dress too, but this is rare to me...unusual ....as i seldom ...wear..dress, skirt those so lady stuff!!! So, i think i am little bit clumsy that night....and i still cant accept my hair style!!!!

..at about 5pm...all thing is ready...(u will think so fast?) hehehe juz ready to start!!! haha..wei chern as usual be the driver..we went to the saloon nearby..(just nearby U know! one of my sis's friend's dad is going to set our hair..) i was so scared that time....when saw wei chern hair style...done by.....( i shud't mention the name) i can accept.. i mean she is kind of like a cool girl, but i ..celarly know that this wil not fit me!!!! SO, i trying to refuse...to set my poor hair!! T_T
HOwever, i failed. The picture above shows how ugly my hair was.....T_T

Then we went ot Shee Yee's house to make up....her sis was so "white". i totally cant believe that she joined NS(national Serviece) before!!!! One of the thing i wan to say about is..wahahaha my mum tot her make up is good, better than my mum herself...wahahahaha..but i think bit weird lal...hehehee still can be accepted!

Around 745pm( as we planned) we went to PEARL VIEW HOTEL!!!!! the venue, our final destination!!!! the place which we hav to dress up like this...more precisely is that the event...that graduation night was held there.^^. Nobody was there ...i cant stand the strong wind outside, so wei chern and i went in the hotel...straight to the...toilet...wahahahaha and took a picture!! ^^

After we satisfy wif our looking ( i mean standing in front of the mirror keep looking oursleves...i cant believe i can dress like this!) we went out from the toilet and i saw GAYATHRI (she used to be my calssmate but she transfered to other school last year...so sad...^^) she become more beautiful ord o!!!hhahahaah then later we saw all ...were there...SHEE YEE, KHAI WON, SHEAH YEN, HUI QIN and their partner of course..OMG Sheah yen's partner look...cute and bit handsome...wahhahaha he is older than us......( one year onli lal)

hey, guys i lazy to report liao lal...so i jz put the photo and u (who din go tat nite jz imagine wat happen lal.....to b honest...nothing special~)

HARI ANUGERAH

HAHAHA....actually Hari Anugerah ord finished...last week but because i m too lazy...finally, i decided to write it here ..^^ For some of my friends..sorry, to let u guys for waiting so long..wahahha.

Ok, let get start. Hari Anugerah...this day is very useless for us when we were form 1 and 2.However, since we joined Music Club..that day ....we willl be very busy...i mean quite busy.WHY? ^^ as we will be there to perform our recorder performance! HEnce, last few weeks before HARI ANUGErah...we have to go pratice and pratice..is little bored but we were happy as we can take this chance to skip class!! especially MATH which is teached by a vry bored teacher. This is why i love MUSIC CLUBBBBB!

After so many praticing, ...finally that day had come...TOday is HARI ANUGERAH! ON FRI, held in our school hall and will begin at sharp 8am. But, we never get nervous, whahaha coz we already get use to it ...we came to school as usual, but the only different was we were wearing a black vest, whitle long sleeve shirt and a balck skirt (of course boys will wear pants).

sharp 8am, my friends were so punctual and the teachers too... the first performance that day was gamelan..( i think so...sorry i cant remember ) ..then anglklung, and my dear friend khai won playing her violin..accompanied by Jennifer ( our school best pianist!) .

ANd coming up next ...were us...recorder performance.!!! AAaaAAA~~ tat time i became bit nervous although i dint at 1st....then we all get ready outside the hall.waiting waiting and waiting..scared? nervous? bit ...^^

YEah!finally our great performance over jor! wahahaha ...but i cant rest...T_T JENNIFER, A PA( CMY) and I have to go somewhere line up and to get our reward....haiz...why cant i just get a break?.....the thing happen later is like usual ( i am too lazy to write, think about it urself. sorry)

After the HARI ANUGERAH had finished, we got to our class as nothing can do. BUT now was SJ? the most boring subject! luckily, that time no one was in the class, so we ask KHAILID our dear SJ teacher dont teach...and he agreed ...we all were too lazy hahahahah...nono no , we shud say we were too tired...^^ so we stay in the class, all get together....here start chit chat! talking all nonsense,....some started palying with the camera...taking funny funny photos....

Last, i want to thank all my friend, this year HARI ANUGERAH was my last year ..last performance. Dont when can i get together will u all like this....SAD...FRIENDS, TEACHERS, CLUBS, School...I LOVE U ALL!!! i promise i will miss U!

HAlo......long time no see!!! i juz came back from BM (place where i camping there), pusat kokurikulum!!! This is my first time Camping....it was PBSM leadership camp.TEh forced me to go for the camping at first i really very very very regret that y i promise to go! But now ...that camp still fun and i learnt a lot!!! i meet more friends from other school and we spended three days two night there. The first day, we reached there we had to go to register and my schoolmates all were seperate to different group, and i was in group KILO which we called it Group K. we got total about 30 groups!!! This means that total student that go for the camping is about 300!!!! WOW! there were JIT SHIN, CHUNG LING( BUTTERWORTH), CONVERT(BM), SEBERANG JAYA......and last of course my school SMK TUN HUSEEIN ONN.MOst of the student were about form 1 to from 3,and only fews are form 4.my group( KILO) got 2 olny a boy called jing chen and i . Oya i met my primary school friend, DING LIK SIONG and my two tuition friend YING LAN and CHIA Chuan. ( i dont know i spell correct or wrong) I really Happy lal that time. HEHEHE.....1st after we registered, and we kumpul at tapak perhimpunan with my group members.At first i really scare cause i totally dont all my group members and i oso dont know how to kawat!!! and i m the one who standing in front!!! goD!!! so i do like others lapor how many group members in our group, actually i very happy cause i can shouted so loud and so semangat ( i think i was semangat lal). AFTER that the camp kong ask us to chose a leader and an assitant because of i totally dont know how to kawat so i dint take any jawatan as a leader or assitant. Come on if you totally dont anything that is better not to be any important part in the group or else you will become the black sheep! But now i got a little bit regret that i dint take any jawatan but nevermind! Then after singing 3 song MEGARAKU, PULAU PINANG , and PBSM song ( GOD! my schoolmate all dont know how to sing that song lal so paiseh!) then we put our belongings in the tent. I of course sleep with my friends, and there so many ppl in a tent!! and then tnet was so dirty!!!! After eating breakfast( actually i already no mood to eat anything because i really want to go home at that time), we all kumpul again at tapak perhimpunan. and then em.... all i can remember was juz we were sitting there at the dewan for hundreds hour for many boring ceramah. some of us even fall sleep at there at that time!! there are kebakaran ceramah, PBSM ceramah, and watelse i cant remember already. everytime after one ceramah we all will sure go to eat. GOD y oways eat?! oya we oao learnt how to ikat tali to llheld a tent ! ajar by those scouts! THen untill night we were given about 1 and the half hour to take a bath , wat dinner and rest . so i decide not to eat but take a bath instead! But when i reach the toilet or bilik mandi GOD dono y i feel very gelli for one to mandi there!!! so so so dono how to describe! But still can called clean lal, and is very crowded, most of the girls oso chose to take bath rather than makan! hahahaha.....and last i mandi without using the shampoo all shmpoo i brought were totally useless!!! haiz.....and after mandi i went back to my tent, i met teh my fren she asked me to go eat dinner with her so i agree lol( cin cai lal although i really dont wan and no mood to eat). but when we are still eating the bell ring!!! which means that we have to kumpul at the tapak perhimpunan already!! Shit!! we al rush like hell kepp running!!!!! BUt stil we all kena denda ......haiz... that time we all were so angry cause the time that wat the kem kong told us to kumpul was still got about 25 minits left!!! WOW!! really angry...so when we ready at the tapak perhimpunan, a student shout out that he is really cant accepted why he kena denda like this....at that moment, i think tat he is so brave!!! oya that boy is come from CHUNG LING! But obviously, his Bhasa melayu is not good, ok lol cause he comeds from chinese school mah....most them chinese school their bahasa melayu when u want them to speak is not that good this is a conclusion that i get from the camp!and then that nite i tot we have to suffer lagi because i dont know wat is iceberg ( wat actually is that activitis i really dont know). But out of my expect, it was quite FUN!!! Thar night we all were so high!!! I pukul many ppl and i get to know many friends!!! WE sleep at about 1:30am ....so tired. HIHIHIHIH2nd day, we wake up at 5:00am , u know what does it mean? it means that we only slept for 4hours only oo!!my eye cant open!!!! We all still very tired!!! after brushing our teeth, we kumpul at tapak perhimpunan again and do some exercises!! Sit up lal....many lal....till we all cant stand it anymore, everybody shouted out for pain!! HAHAHHA.....then we got some intersting activites. YEAH!!now is outdoor activitis!!!! so syok !!!!! got bicycle ride, climb the moutain( of course not the real moutain), and others i dont what are their's name.my pants all kena muddy water!!! so dirtY!!! and we cant change it before we finish all the games!!!! and the bicycle ride i rell many times because i m too short and i leg cant even touch the lantai!! so once i ride it i cant stop already , but those members in front of me keep stoping shit!!! and hohoho finally we lost in the jungle and lcky we can find the way out!!! hahaha!!! so shame lol we all!! That night is our school performance!!!each school have to perfome and who is the best will win the trophy!!of couse we vry nervous...and one of my friend when he play wrong one note ( we play recorded) we keep saying it and so sedih for it....so funny hahahahah....at that nit all of us gave fully support to all school performance!!! we claps our hands swing ....and we shouted!!! oya when we were playing recorder at the stages we play FAIRY TALE....a chinses song...everybody sings together that time i feel so syok !!!! and i enjoyed playing that recorder!! oya then when al the performance finished, a women i think is PBSm member asked ua to close our eye anf she told us a story which make many ppl cry...escept some lal included me ...hahahah .....coz i really cant imagine what she says lal...i m too tired and then i fall in sleep...when i wake up i know what she is talking about liao ....some of them even pretend like vry sad and cry lol hahahahha....After that we hhave to kumpul at the tapak perhimpunan ,.....i thouht we can sleep already....but GOD we have to kawat at miodnight!!! we all sleep bout 230am !!!!!3rd day, this was the last day, we all were so excited!!!! especially my "roommates"....we all keep saying" hohoo...today go go home liao...hahahha no need so suffer liao ....hahah...can go relax and take a "good" bath, somemore wan eat KFC, PIzza....hahhaha..balik kampung the 1st thing is take a bath,then sleep, then eat dinner, then take a bath then play online gamessss!!!" All of us were so exiceted!! That day got a ceremony , and my school won then best performance. Our leader(school leader) oso my best friend was so happy!! then we all sang songs NEGARAku and so on....then we all take PHOTO ...all dont care leader or members...all were so happy!! all play play play when taking photo.....that time was about 2pm lol....after that i skip my lunch cause i going to eat at home, then i go to my tent to tidy up my things..and i met my roommates who oso skip her lunch, then we chated...she talk about her family..she is a form 5 gal but she got go pealihan so now she is form 4.She go to school eraly in the morning then come back go to work,at night still wan to cook for her family ....poor little..she say she is so tired tilll she can sleep when she is mandi!!! so pitiful! her father wont give them money to buy food 2months after chinese NEW YEar!! so...!! HAiz...this remind me to be appriciate what i have now! Haiz...wish my roommate will b happy all the time and got lots of energy!! GAMBATEH! oya got one thing make me happy is my group member who is same age with me called jing chen he remember my name!!! so happy when he called me ask me why i dint go eat my lunch!! He called me juz like we already know each other long time ago!! hahahaha so happy !!! After all things settle, many start to go liao included my school frenz.....only left 3 of us jennifer, teh and i. At first we thought the organiuzer got prepare bus for us...about 3pm baru we know this is not us de bus ....so we stayed there wait The's mum......and i reached home at 4pm .....haiz..jennifer and i both of us were too tired and we juz slept on Teh's car!!!....when i reached home i was so excited hahhahaha......Finally all end....oya..when we all go home we say to each other GOODBYE as loud as we could!! hahaha and oso when we kawat we all jerit like hell!!! CONCLUSIONthis camping was very happy indeed!!! i love it!! But if got next time....plz....dont call me go liao lal....coz tired lal...paiseh....swt!! hahahahhahai will miss u all...my new frenz...and the uniqe memroy, the time that we had been together!!!MISS U ALL

MY first camping!

HAlo......long time no see!!! i juz came back from BM (place where i camping there), pusat kokurikulum!!! This is my first time Camping....it was PBSM leadership camp.TEh forced me to go for the camping at first i really very very very regret that y i promise to go! But now ...that camp still fun and i learnt a lot!!! i meet more friends from other school and we spended three days two night there. The first day, we reached there we had to go to register and my schoolmates all were seperate to different group, and i was in group KILO which we called it Group K. we got total about 30 groups!!! This means that total student that go for the camping is about 300!!!! WOW! there were JIT SHIN, CHUNG LING( BUTTERWORTH), CONVERT(BM), SEBERANG JAYA......and last of course my school SMK TUN HUSEEIN ONN.MOst of the student were about form 1 to from 3,and only fews are form 4.my group( KILO) got 2 olny a boy called jing chen and i . Oya i met my primary school friend, DING LIK SIONG and my two tuition friend YING LAN and CHIA Chuan. ( i dont know i spell correct or wrong) I really Happy lal that time. HEHEHE.....1st after we registered, and we kumpul at tapak perhimpunan with my group members.At first i really scare cause i totally dont all my group members and i oso dont know how to kawat!!! and i m the one who standing in front!!! goD!!! so i do like others lapor how many group members in our group, actually i very happy cause i can shouted so loud and so semangat ( i think i was semangat lal). AFTER that the camp kong ask us to chose a leader and an assitant because of i totally dont know how to kawat so i dint take any jawatan as a leader or assitant. Come on if you totally dont anything that is better not to be any important part in the group or else you will become the black sheep! But now i got a little bit regret that i dint take any jawatan but nevermind! Then after singing 3 song MEGARAKU, PULAU PINANG , and PBSM song ( GOD! my schoolmate all dont know how to sing that song lal so paiseh!) then we put our belongings in the tent. I of course sleep with my friends, and there so many ppl in a tent!! and then tnet was so dirty!!!! After eating breakfast( actually i already no mood to eat anything because i really want to go home at that time), we all kumpul again at tapak perhimpunan. and then em.... all i can remember was juz we were sitting there at the dewan for hundreds hour for many boring ceramah. some of us even fall sleep at there at that time!! there are kebakaran ceramah, PBSM ceramah, and watelse i cant remember already. everytime after one ceramah we all will sure go to eat. GOD y oways eat?! oya we oao learnt how to ikat tali to llheld a tent ! ajar by those scouts! THen untill night we were given about 1 and the half hour to take a bath , wat dinner and rest . so i decide not to eat but take a bath instead! But when i reach the toilet or bilik mandi GOD dono y i feel very gelli for one to mandi there!!! so so so dono how to describe! But still can called clean lal, and is very crowded, most of the girls oso chose to take bath rather than makan! hahahaha.....and last i mandi without using the shampoo all shmpoo i brought were totally useless!!! haiz.....and after mandi i went back to my tent, i met teh my fren she asked me to go eat dinner with her so i agree lol( cin cai lal although i really dont wan and no mood to eat). but when we are still eating the bell ring!!! which means that we have to kumpul at the tapak perhimpunan already!! Shit!! we al rush like hell kepp running!!!!! BUt stil we all kena denda ......haiz... that time we all were so angry cause the time that wat the kem kong told us to kumpul was still got about 25 minits left!!! WOW!! really angry...so when we ready at the tapak perhimpunan, a student shout out that he is really cant accepted why he kena denda like this....at that moment, i think tat he is so brave!!! oya that boy is come from CHUNG LING! But obviously, his Bhasa melayu is not good, ok lol cause he comeds from chinese school mah....most them chinese school their bahasa melayu when u want them to speak is not that good this is a conclusion that i get from the camp!and then that nite i tot we have to suffer lagi because i dont know wat is iceberg ( wat actually is that activitis i really dont know). But out of my expect, it was quite FUN!!! Thar night we all were so high!!! I pukul many ppl and i get to know many friends!!! WE sleep at about 1:30am ....so tired. HIHIHIHIH2nd day, we wake up at 5:00am , u know what does it mean? it means that we only slept for 4hours only oo!!my eye cant open!!!! We all still very tired!!! after brushing our teeth, we kumpul at tapak perhimpunan again and do some exercises!! Sit up lal....many lal....till we all cant stand it anymore, everybody shouted out for pain!! HAHAHHA.....then we got some intersting activites. YEAH!!now is outdoor activitis!!!! so syok !!!!! got bicycle ride, climb the moutain( of course not the real moutain), and others i dont what are their's name.my pants all kena muddy water!!! so dirtY!!! and we cant change it before we finish all the games!!!! and the bicycle ride i rell many times because i m too short and i leg cant even touch the lantai!! so once i ride it i cant stop already , but those members in front of me keep stoping shit!!! and hohoho finally we lost in the jungle and lcky we can find the way out!!! hahaha!!! so shame lol we all!! That night is our school performance!!!each school have to perfome and who is the best will win the trophy!!of couse we vry nervous...and one of my friend when he play wrong one note ( we play recorded) we keep saying it and so sedih for it....so funny hahahahah....at that nit all of us gave fully support to all school performance!!! we claps our hands swing ....and we shouted!!! oya when we were playing recorder at the stages we play FAIRY TALE....a chinses song...everybody sings together that time i feel so syok !!!! and i enjoyed playing that recorder!! oya then when al the performance finished, a women i think is PBSm member asked ua to close our eye anf she told us a story which make many ppl cry...escept some lal included me ...hahahah .....coz i really cant imagine what she says lal...i m too tired and then i fall in sleep...when i wake up i know what she is talking about liao ....some of them even pretend like vry sad and cry lol hahahahha....After that we hhave to kumpul at the tapak perhimpunan ,.....i thouht we can sleep already....but GOD we have to kawat at miodnight!!! we all sleep bout 230am !!!!!3rd day, this was the last day, we all were so excited!!!! especially my "roommates"....we all keep saying" hohoo...today go go home liao...hahahha no need so suffer liao ....hahah...can go relax and take a "good" bath, somemore wan eat KFC, PIzza....hahhaha..balik kampung the 1st thing is take a bath,then sleep, then eat dinner, then take a bath then play online gamessss!!!" All of us were so exiceted!! That day got a ceremony , and my school won then best performance. Our leader(school leader) oso my best friend was so happy!! then we all sang songs NEGARAku and so on....then we all take PHOTO ...all dont care leader or members...all were so happy!! all play play play when taking photo.....that time was about 2pm lol....after that i skip my lunch cause i going to eat at home, then i go to my tent to tidy up my things..and i met my roommates who oso skip her lunch, then we chated...she talk about her family..she is a form 5 gal but she got go pealihan so now she is form 4.She go to school eraly in the morning then come back go to work,at night still wan to cook for her family ....poor little..she say she is so tired tilll she can sleep when she is mandi!!! so pitiful! her father wont give them money to buy food 2months after chinese NEW YEar!! so...!! HAiz...this remind me to be appriciate what i have now! Haiz...wish my roommate will b happy all the time and got lots of energy!! GAMBATEH! oya got one thing make me happy is my group member who is same age with me called jing chen he remember my name!!! so happy when he called me ask me why i dint go eat my lunch!! He called me juz like we already know each other long time ago!! hahahaha so happy !!! After all things settle, many start to go liao included my school frenz.....only left 3 of us jennifer, teh and i. At first we thought the organiuzer got prepare bus for us...about 3pm baru we know this is not us de bus ....so we stayed there wait The's mum......and i reached home at 4pm .....haiz..jennifer and i both of us were too tired and we juz slept on Teh's car!!!....when i reached home i was so excited hahhahaha......Finally all end....oya..when we all go home we say to each other GOODBYE as loud as we could!! hahaha and oso when we kawat we all jerit like hell!!!

CONCLUSION=this camping was very happy indeed!!! i love it!! But if got next time....plz....dont call me go liao lal....coz tired lal...paiseh....swt!! hahahahhahai will miss u all...my new frenz...and the uniqe memroy, the time that we had been together!!!MISS U ALL

Love

Love? strange....
can anybody tell me what is this?
Love .....this kind of feeling....no one can control. Well, what i mean about love in this context ...is of course about a relationship between boys and gals, boys and boys, or even gals and gals. I do not discrimanate sex orintation.
Nowadays, even a 6 year-old girl will know what is love..
However, LOVE is strange to me. I dont understand ..why people can sacrifice for their lover, for people who they love? And sometimes, the people who sacrificed, dint get any repay, to the worst part, the people they love will turn back , betray them, hurt them.....is this worth? Y? Y want to do this kind of stupid thing??
hiaz....
love is the most craziest thing in the world...complicated.....hard to understand, tough then all the subjects!
--------------------------------so , let it really a QUESTION MARK for me...------------------------------------------